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Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Too Excited To Sleep


Yeah.. We Leave Tomorrow:)

First stop the Excalibur in Vegas

Then on to The Happiest Place on Earth.

Yay!!!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Melt Down

Not sure why I chose this picture


Of all the pictures of us.


I just love how happy Ken looks here.


It was just a day.


A Saturday.


He came up to Payson to see me at work.


And Santa Thane was there.


So we got our picture taken.


Just a day.


And I think I realize now that this is what I love the most


About Ken.


Just the days.


The days when he just hangs out with me


Because I'm me


And there's noone he'd rather be with.


I had a meltdown this morning.


I miss my kids.


They love their Dad's girlfriend.


That's hard for me.


I'M their Mom, dammit!!!!


I try to understand.


And in my head,


I DO understand.


But in my heart....


ah, my heart.


Ken fixes it.


Holds me when I cry.


Tells me I'm a good Mom.


That they love me.


And time will help.


I'd be lost without him.


Please, God, never let me forget


How blessed I am


To have found this amazing man.


Never let me take him for granted.







Thursday, January 12, 2012

Strength

My beautiful little daughter is having a miscarriage.

My heart is breaking.

It's been a few days now.

They didn't do a D&C

So she's just going through it.

Labor pains, cramping, bleeding

With no reward of a baby at the end.

And she has SUCH a good attitude.

I can't believe how strong she is.

Wow.

I am humbled by what great people my children are.

In spite of the hell their parents have put them through.

I am so blessed.

More than I deserve.



Tuesday, January 03, 2012

Big Changes....

Big Changes at Casa Carlson....



I retired my Blackberry and went back to my trusty old LG phone.



I love this phone.



It's easy to navigate and simple to use.



And it only costs $10 a month.



No big fancy data package.



I get free internet at home~



A perk of living with the cable guy.



So why do I need a data package on my phone? Hmmm..



I am smarter than my smart phone.



Yay me!



And.... when I started using the old phone today



I found all my old texts that I saved from when Ken and I first met



And started dating.



Awe...



Nice to have those back again.



Second big change...



I gave my notice today at Wal-Mart.



Really tough decision.



It's been a great job.



But it's a two-hour commute for me.



For very little money.



I loved it.



I loved seeing Zack every day.



But it was costing more in gas money than it was worth.



And I was gone from home 12 hours a day.



So I'll be working full time at Maverik here in Ephraim.



A couple blocks from home.



Yay!



Still making very little money.



But no commute.



And it's a lot of fun.



Seeing the college kids.



Catching the scoop on the outrageous number of crimes



Occuring in our little county lately.



Wow.



I love working there:)






And the new semester starts Monday.



I procrastinated my math classes.



So I still have two more semesters to my



Associates Degree



and then on to my Bachelors



I love school.



Life is good:)